14th February 2011
This past week or so we have had a Valentine message board up on JK, (this site no longer exists but it is where Michael and I meet) a place for people to leave their special messages of love and lust to those that are important to them. It has played on my mind since it appeared and to be honest I have avoided posting on it. I just didn’t seem to be able to form a message that could even begin to do justice to the way I feel about Him.
Then yesterday this appeared…..
somewhere I have never travelled, gladly beyond
any experience, your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which I cannot touch because they are too near
your slightest look easily will unclose me
though I have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully, mysteriously)her first rose
or if your wish be to close me, I and
my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;
nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing
(I do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands
The words above are not mine, and the meaning may seem obscure.
But they touch my heart and soul in the same way that a single look or gesture from you makes my heart beat stronger.
The future will be ours if we have the strength and determination to make it so.
I am ready and willing to go there. Come along with me and be by my side, where you belong…. until the end of our days.
I remain as much yours as you are Mine
As is often the case His words took my breath away and brought tears to my eyes. Everything that we are to one another seems to be here in His words to me and reading them finally broke my writers block and so I left my message……
To My Darling Valentine……
I have pondered this post for days now, desperately searching in my brain for the words that I need to tell you how I feel about you, yet even now they seem to elude me. Maybe the words I need just don’t exist, none that I seem to be able to find even begin to do my feelings for you justice.
I am lost in my world of love for you, you are my everything, my soul mate, my friend, my lover, my Dom, my Knight in shining armour, my love, my laughter, my hopes, my dreams and my future…..and it’s a future that I can’t wait for.
I know I have said it many times before, but please hurry Sir, there is a big gap in my life waiting for you to fill it, only when that day arrives will I truly be complete. Take me as I am, I offer you my heart, soul, body and mind. I am forever Yours……
My words still seem, to me, to not even come close to my feelings for Him and my hopes and dreams of our future together. I don’t think they convey the longing I have for Him, the desire I feel for Him or the way in which His presence in my life completes me on so many levels. He tells me that I am amazing, and I tell Him the same in return but actually I think what really makes us amazing is each other. It is together that we are amazing……
But what about His gift from me? You all know I got my valentine gift last week and I also sent Sir His favourite English chocolate but seeing as this year was not the time for real gifts, here is my valentine gift to the man I love….
Your gift is me…….