As you will have probably noticed yesterday I am joining in with Hyacinth’s Every Damn Day in June meme. I wrote a thread about it on Twitter about my reasons for doing that and how I am feeling about life and the world at the moment but I wanted to share those thoughts here too just to give context to my decisions and how I am feeling about everything at the moment.
This is what I wrote…
I am really struggling right now. I am scared and worried for people I love in the USA and even for those I don’t know personally who are living this fight. I fearful for them all for what the American government might do to them but also what the Corona virus might do too.
And then there is my own country and a government who seems to have decided to totally give up of trying to protect us from the Corona virus. I am scared for me and my parents and my beautiful children.
And on top of all that I am scared I might never see the man I love again or that it might be a year or more before I do and my heart aches at that thought. (This is a HUGE thing for me right now)
But i also need to try to hold onto who I am and so I am going to try and join in with Every Damn Day in June on my blog and try to reconnect with my creative self and also continue my picture a day here.
If I don’t then I fear I will be lost to me forever. I am not the person I was a year ago or even a few months ago. I am an anxious lonely scared version of myself. I know that this year has changed me forever but I know that the need to be creative is fundamental
To who I am and so I am going to give myself permission to focus on that for a bit and see where it takes me.
And just in case I have not been clear…
Black lives matter.
Trump is a stain on humanity.
Boris and Cummings are scum as are all the Tories.
Additional thought. I am all the white privilege. None of this is about me and my issues right now are insignificant compared to those in marginalised communities. I see you and hear you. I promise to always educate myself and those around me about these issues and raise up your voices whenever and wherever I can.
So yes, this is not a sexy post. Hopefully sexy will resume tomorrow but it just felt important to share those thoughts here today as well
Stay safe
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ancilla ksst
I just want to leave some hearts here.
sass c.
I think this year has impacted everyone in a negative way. It’s led to depression, anxiety, fear, chaos, and more hate. You are not alone. Sending you much love in these dark times.