A sexual experience does not have to involve a partner for it to be a valid and enjoyable, pleasure seeking with yourself totally counts.
I miss a lot of things at the moment. I wrote about some of them this week, pain and marks and the intimacy of being with a partner and it goes without saying think that I miss sex and other kink things a lot too. It is what it is, for now and that is one thing I am really trying to hold on to. It is not forever it is just for now and whilst it is I am doing my best to find joy and pleasure in exploring my body on my own. Not that I don’t or didn’t masturbate when I had a partner with me but that now it is my main sexual outlet I am making a conscious effort to spend a bit more time and thought on it.
Clearly some days all you have time for is something quick but just like it is important to make time for sex with your partner I think it is important to make time for sex with yourself. I have been reengaging with filthy fantasies that I had hidden away in the past for various reasons and even been experimenting with some self administered pain, more on that another time. I have also contemplated trying some self rope bondage but I am slightly wary of that because all my rope experience so far (which is very limited) has resulted in me being fairly blissed out and I am not sure that is good if you are on your own.
I say on my own, which physically it is, but sharing your wanks with a partner is still a wonderful thing. Talking about what we would like to do with one another, sharing fantasies and also memories is a joyful thing.
Once I discovered my orgasms back in my early 20’s I set about perfecting how to make them happen and that has been a life long exploration that continues to this day and whilst sharing by body with a partner is the ultimate for me having this time to regroup and explore by myself again is something I am trying to make the most of and see as a valid and pleasurable time for me to connect with body.