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28th February 2011

Red panties round anklesDo you sometimes think life has gone a little out of focus? Everything around you seems to be a little bit hazy or out of reach and your mind is a muddled mess of all the things you know you should be doing but somehow you never quite get round to any of them. The to-do list stays pretty much the same and even when you do cross something off of it, you add 3 more items on the bottom in its place.

That is most definitely how last week ended for me, in a hazy, out of focus mess, of tears, sadness, longing and frustration. Most days I cope with the feelings I have about missing him and yearning for our life together to start, but every now and then (ok, on an all to regular basis) those feelings bubble up within me and cloud my judgement, my ability to cope with our separation and so my focus slips. Instead of looking further into the future, working towards our goal and knowing that our time will soon come, all I can think about is the here and now.

The need for His arms around me, the overwhelming desire to spend just a few moments in a room with Him turn me into a wreck. I crave Him and I crave the way I feel when he is near me. When we are together I feel completed, I feel truly alive, I feel calm, and yes you guessed it, focused.

I know when I lose my focus and turn into the desperate broken wreck of a woman it is agony for Him to watch. He blames Himself, when it is not His fault. The blame belongs with a system that is painfully slow and with my impatience to be with Him and with love. A love that feeds my soul, a love that burns brightly within me but a love that sometimes drives me to lose my focus and when that happens my need for Him takes over and I can’t think about the future, all I can think about is the next few minutes or hours without Him and how unbearable they seem to me.

I know it’s no longer January, oh believe me I know this only too well, in fact tomorrow will be March and if you read back to the post I made at the beginning of February, you will see that I was hopeful that February would bring us some answers. The answer to that is, not really, maybe half an answer but nothing conclusive and so the waiting goes on and all I can do is try really, really hard to keep my focus.


  • Molly Moore - Author, Blogger, Photographer, Speaker, Director of Operations @Eroticon Find me in my corner of the internet at Molly's Daily Kiss and on Twitter @mollysdailykiss

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  • aromanticheart

    *hugs* I understand how hard it is waiting, not quite as much as you and Signs but believe me I miss D just as much if anything the dreams of us together are enjoyable but they are also heart-breaking. But half an answer is still good, It might not be good for miss impatient molly 😛 but it’s still an answer. Plus I think the impatience and need show how much you want this it WILL happen! <3

  • DDD

    I’m so sorry for your pain and impatience. But the degree to which you feel both only proves how amazingly lucky you are to have found one another.

    On a less emotional note, did you take that photo? It is FANTASTIC. I love it.

    • mollyskiss

      Aww ty DDD, maybe its me just being impatient….

      And yes, I did take that picture but to be honest it was a fluke.


  • goddessv

    love you Molls!


    • mollyskiss

      And you too sexy lady xxx

  • sambrown

    Hang in there Molly. For all the todays you have to get through there are going to be loads of tomorrows. Great piccie by the way

  • Inferno

    Read your more current post and since March is here… 🙂

    Just wanted to say that I really like this picture.
    I know you said it was a fluke, but it turned out fabulous!

    • mollyskiss

      Thank you very much for your comment, it was a fluke but one I was VERY pleased with.

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