Power of light

by Molly Moore
Side view of molly with dark flower shadows playing across her skin and breastfor post about power of light and kink

“Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”
~ Brene Brown

A few years back this quote would probably have got me writing about being submissive and my then D/s relationship and so when I saw this quote my actual initial reaction was yuck because of how it felt linked to that history and how I feel about those things now.

Mostly I keep my mouth shut about it. I am aware that my feelings on the subject mean my attitude towards D/s is that it is a load of pissballs but I know I am letting my experiences create sweeping general statements in me. My feelings about it all are hugely complicated. I am hoping with time my anger and resentment will continue to quieten and I will be able to view it more dispassionately.

So I sat and thought about the quote a bit more and why it inspired that reaction in me and I realised that is because I spent a the last 10 years exploring my darkness and much of that in a D/s relationship that I now have complex feelings about. That is something I need to work through and make my peace with but I also realised that whilst I have not the best feelings about some of that I actually learned a LOT about myself, my sexuality and my kink. In many ways it has bought so much light into my life.

Those explorations and in many ways that relationship failing has resulted in me having huge personal realisations about the things I need and want to be happy both when it comes to kink and non-monogamy. I am slowly starting to explore my more dominant side. I never even really knew it existed until the last 6 months. It is an exciting discovery and I think for obvious reasons I don’t have the same negative feelings towards D/s where I was in the D role. I feel an element of control and strength in that position that is both very hot but also doesn’t make me feel vulnerable in a way that I am uncomfortable with.

Despite my disquiet about D/s and my distrust of it as a relationship model I am confident about my kinks and the things that get me off. I know the things I like and I also have a really idea of things I want to explore either for the first time or again. I know with the right person I can allow myself to be vulnerable and trust my submissive kink. Currently, apart from The Charmer there are two people who I feel comfortable treading in those waters with.

And so looking back to the quote; I have most definitely explored a lot of the darkness of my kink. I know much of what I like and want, and I have complete confidence in that when it comes to The Charmer. Our relationship is actually so incredibly easy even though the world has made it hard. However I also want to find some other people who I feel comfortable lowering some of the guards I have put in place so that darkness can bring so much more delicious light into my life.

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14 comments

violet fawkes August 9, 2020 - 1:13 am

I wish you that peace, Molly. And the light, always the light.

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Molly Moore August 9, 2020 - 11:54 am

Thank you Violet and also thank you for your wise words in Twitter last night.

Molly

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Muse August 9, 2020 - 11:05 am

Beautiful photo as always Molly but wanted to say thanks for sharing your journey, it helps to hear others opinions and discoveries, especially those with wealth of experience that can change their direction as they grow x

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Molly Moore August 9, 2020 - 11:55 am

Thank you Muse. I have definitely changed, things have changed and as a result so have I. I have absolutely no interest in recreating what was.

Molly

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Modesty Ablaze August 9, 2020 - 11:26 am

And may you find more power as the light continues to grow … and I know you will !!!
And your photo is simply lovely … as they always are !!!
Xxx – K

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Molly Moore August 9, 2020 - 11:56 am

Thank you Modesty

Molly

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MariaSibylla August 10, 2020 - 4:51 am

So much love to you, Molly. As others have said, you sharing your journey is inspiring and encouraging. I love, love this photo, the flower shapes and shadows are so seemingly delicate, but there is something about the image that is all power. A pure control of darkness and light.

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Lascivious Lucy August 10, 2020 - 5:52 am

This is stunning! I love the shadow work

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Julie August 10, 2020 - 1:07 pm

I am so glad you are exploring new avenues and also that there are some positives to take from dark times. Plus a beautiful image xx

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Luv Bunny August 11, 2020 - 1:00 pm

It’s funny how our likes and dislikes can change as we go through life. I hope you feel in a better place now.
Best wishes,

Luv Bunny

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LittleSwitchBitch August 11, 2020 - 1:17 pm

I honestly believe you are entitled to share your words, experiences, and thoughts because they matter, regardless of who disagrees with them. Believe me, experiences shared always help someone, somewhere understand the feelings they are experiencing!

I def look forward to seeing an reading about all the new light you welcome into your life.

Much love xx <3

And thank you for linking up to Quote Quest 🙂 x

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Bee August 11, 2020 - 4:21 pm

I’m glad you’ve shared at least some of your thoughts. I have slightly different views but like you don’t want to be in a 24/7 situation, we tried it and it didn’t work. Unlike you I don’t imagine ever being on the D side of the slash, I just don’t get where the enjoyment comes from with that much pressure on your shoulders.

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Annie Savoy August 12, 2020 - 12:47 am

Here’s to the light, wherever we may find it. And especially if it comes in achingly beautiful forms like this picture you took. Xox

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DeviantSuccubus August 13, 2020 - 11:16 am

I really really like this picture. There is such serenity in the movement somehow. I hope the light will be in your life and find you soon, too!

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