I have waited

Enough!! I called out,
I have waited long enough
Let me live Again!
Tyler Knott Gregson

I took this picture while I was waiting for you. Waiting for us. For our first time.

The room throbbed with the last of the summers sultry heat. I flung the windows wide in an attempt to cool the room, to cool me. The camera sat atop it’s 3 legged throne. It waits too, ready, poised to capture me in this moment. Waiting.

It’s been weeks since we first met. I nearly didn’t show up. It had been a hard day and I came so close to cancelling but then someone said something annoying and I knew I needed to get out the house for a bit. I am glad they did. It sent me out. It resulted in us.

That first date only lasted about an hour but I walked across the car park back to our respective cars with you by my side itching to kiss you. According to you I hide it well but I also know you felt the pull, the buzz of chemistry already sparking around us. I drove away muttering under my breath…. Fuckkkkk.

It’s not often you meet another human being where that connection is almost instant.

Two more dates passed… stories for another time and here I am, laying on this bed. Waiting for you. Taking my picture to pass the time. Taking my picture to mark the time. My flesh unmarked. Untouched. Just for a couple hours more. Although you made me wait more that night. Putting it off. Enjoying my need. Playing with it. I have waited. And it was so worth it.

I wonder how much longer I will have to wait. How much longer we have to wait until there can be more.