Soft Spots

by Molly Moore
Cropped black and white image showing the top of mollys knickers and her fingers digging into her belly for post called soft spots

“all the words
all the poems
my warm, soft spots.”
~ Sanober Khan

It was my birthday on Friday. I was 52. It is a surprising age to find myself. One moment you are 37 and pondering starting a sex blog and the next moment you are 52 and you have been writing that blog for 14+ years. Honestly there are days when it really does feel like that was yesterday and others when it feels like so very long ago. Who was that woman, who is she now, what life has she lived in those years? The answer to that last one is she has lived an amazing life in those years full of up’s and down, joy and heart ache. It’s been wild and wonderful and I have been hugely lucky and privileged to have had that life and to have the life I have now.

My fifties have so far been a little unsettling. Far more so that my 40’s. I remember being so apprehensive about being 40 but looking back there was no need, my 40’s just built on the goodness of my 30’s. I hope in time I will say the same about my 50’s but the changes over the last few years have made me feel ‘old’ (I am not old but older) than ever before. Despite the HRT (which has been a fucking godsend) when it comes to the hot flushes, night sweats etc there have still been changes.

My cunt has been going through a little bit of a trouble. I will definitely write about that at some point now that it seems to have recovered but it was definitely not the must fun I have ever had with my fanny. *laughs

Over all these years here writing my blog and taking my images I have tried to be as open and honest about my body, how it looks and what it likes. If you look back over the years you can see the changes and sometimes for the person in that body that can be jarring but also there has been a great deal of self acceptance in that journey too.

I wanted to take a picture that marked 52 to join all the others that I have taken over the years that have marked another trip around the sun. Earlier this week I stood in my bedroom in just my knickers, not even particularly sexy ones, just plain cotton pants and contemplated things in the mirror. I poked and prodded and sighed a bit and then I decided, fuck it, be bold. Challenge yourself.

This is the result. I will admit I had a moment of doubt about posting it. I showed it to Michael.

Me: “What do you think?”

Him: “It is a really good photo”

Me: “Thanks, but is it even vaguely attractive?”

Him: *Gentle sigh… “What would you say if someone else posted it.

Me: *ponders…..

Me: That is was human, that it was beautiful in it’s honesty.

Him: *Smiles

Me: *tears

And so brave pants on, this is me and all my soft spots at 52.

Black and white image of molly's torso. She is wearing simple cotton knickers and grabbing her belly fat in her hands. We can see the curve of her breasts and the edge of her nipples at the top of the image for post called soft spots
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Jerbear April 20, 2024 - 5:42 pm

I love the honesty, and the bravery that must go with it.

Survivors must be brave, strong and heros to others.

Jeremy April 21, 2024 - 7:34 am

A beautiful post! The words and image combined show strength, vulnerability and honesty. A rare thing in today’s world.

Modesty Ablaze April 20, 2024 - 8:29 pm

So, so much to love about this wonderful photo … AND your wonderful words!!!

I think we all probably go through lots and lots of lows … as well as highs … as the years pass by. And I’ve experienced many similar changes, and doubts and thoughts too.

But like you, I truly feel that on looking back I’m so, so thankful that so many of those experiences, and challenges, have made for an amazing life. And long may it continue … for ALL of us !!!

Xxx – K

Jane April 20, 2024 - 10:52 pm

I love this image so much. And I love you even more for taking it. Sometimes, the best photographs are the ones we hesitate to share with others, and I think this image proves that theory. It’s gorgeous and vulnerable and … real.

Bravo, my dear friend!

Jane xxx

HappyComeLucky April 21, 2024 - 2:17 pm

As someone ahead of you in years and possibly ahead of you in posting images that show squishyness and fat, it is a beautiful and brave image. I’m glad you validated some of your love for yourself by posting it.

Bibulous April 21, 2024 - 7:22 pm

Love it. A glorious image Molly.

Asta April 21, 2024 - 8:10 pm

Firstly happy birthday!! And what a beautiful way to celebrate the continued gift of life by sharing such a powerful image. I am so drawn to not only it’s beauty but the interesting arrangement of triangles, it’s compositionally stunning!!

Exposing40 April 21, 2024 - 10:09 pm

Glad I decided to pick this evening to do some spontaneous commenting on Sinful Sunday. This is a beautiful photo and I’m glad Michael framed it like this because it’s so easy to forget what we’d say to others when in self-critical mode. And belated happy birthday!

Richard April 24, 2024 - 1:43 am

Well done and honest. A joy to follow your work.

Julie April 24, 2024 - 2:13 pm

I’m so happy you posted this as it is much too easy to be far too critical with images of our own bodies in a way we aren’t about those of others. It’s you and you are beautiful. As to age, yep, I identify with every word, except for HRT which I’ve never taken and wish I could have.


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