Change

I have been thinking a lot of late about change recently

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” ~ Anais Nin

Everything has changed in the last 12+ months. Our world is completely different now to what it was and we are all changed by it. We have lived lives we never could have imagined. Hidden away from other people, friends, lovers, family, even work colleagues and for some of us even the people in the shop have become a rarity in our lives. Isolation and separation has been a daily experience for everyone to some degree or other.

But now we are on the cusp of change again. You can see your friends in the pub garden. You might even be going back to work or visiting your family but it’s not the same. Everything has changed. It has changed us. It has changed me. It is not easy stepping out into the world again and you know what, that is OK. None of this has been easy. I find myself feeling totally torn. I so want to see people but also there is a little tingle of anxiety about it too.

On top of all this I am about to make a big change in my life. I am not ready to talk about that is just yet but for me it is a huge thing and as a result both exciting and daunting. It will be one of the biggest changes I have made in my life in a very long time. It really change everything.

So I am surrounded by change at the moment. It is waiting for me everywhere and even though it is challenging like the quote above, not embracing it would only keep me from living fully and I am ready to unfurl just a little bit, lean into these changes and see what happens next.